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darling i love you, intense rain, lost angel, lover's name, mandayuu to ore, ai no katachi(the last of century), utau noraneko - 04/16/2008
asayake no diamond life, denkou sekka boys, love damage, powerful gossip - 04/03/2008
Detective Conan DJ: I'm Not a Kid, HikaGo DJ: Black x White, Whistle DJ: Sleeping Beauty, Naruto DJ: Shinobi no Okite Gaiden, Pleasure Point, Waruiko no Susume, Snowy Night, Saikou no Kimi, Non-Stop Love Power, Koi no Hajimaru, Mokka Mimodaeshi Mune no Uchi - 01/18/2008
Fairy Tail Volume 4-7 - 01/13/2008
Calorie, Fairy Tail, Fruits Basket, Kimi wa Boku wo Suki ni Naru, Kiss ja Tomaranai, Nude na Shisen, Ren-Ai Kyoutei Nukegaki Nashi, Rin, Junjou Renbo - 01/06/2008
Azrael, Haito Diamond, Peeping Tom, The Next Door I Moved To - 12/29/2007
Bishounen no Koi - 12/18/2007
[manga & 2 oneshots] XY, Music At The Break of Dawn + The Whole World Revolves Around You - 12/05/07
L'Arc en Ciel Christmas Album : Hurry X-mas - 11/26/07
Youka Nitta Manga File Dump - 11/26/07
Cheap Thrill (oneshot) - 11/19/07
[manga] Tokaido Hisame - 11/16/07
[manga] Late Night Rain & song : Dream of Me - 11/09/07

Not So Bad
낫 소 배드
Psychological  Shounen Ai  
mangaka : LEE Hae

Is it just me or did the latest opening sequence of BLEACH episode 151 show a preview of ANOTHER movie or oav?!!! I am *squealing*!!! Because the preview was THAT good! I am so excited, I ripped the opening and uploaded it for those of you guys who want a glimpse. I think it's a continuation of the plot holes in the first movie : Memories of Nobody. From what I saw, I think it will air on Dec. 22?! ZOMG! I have to watch it!!!!
Oh Hitsu-Hitsu~! I FEEL FOR YOU! ^3^ I'm a bit scared to know what will happen to Hitsugaya-taichou.... 
Here's the link in avi format 77mb:

[sendspace] 

 
* on another note: KYAH~! Santa's Lap Fest @ IJ is now posting entries!!!!! GET ON YOUR SLEIGHS AND HEAD OVER FOR SLASHY HP YUMMYNESS~! *hearts* all fics...

 
Come join the HP Holiday Chan Fest! santas_lap is a holiday fest specifically for Harry Potter chan slash. We welcome both fics and art for any slash pairing (any rating, any genre). Prompt suggestions are going on now over on InsaneJournal until September 9th. Claims & sign-ups begin September 10th!

*Files have been f-locked. [sorry... -_-;]

Vol 2 chapters 5 & 6 of Tokaido Hisame are [here] 

[7] Wild Adapter icons Kubota/Tokitoh

  

Yay! I finally finished my first custom mood theme! And it's a tribute to Takanaga Hinako-sensei's manga, Bukiyou na Silent. If you guys want it, just pm me and I'll send you the full file, ok? I have no problem with others using my theme... All I require is that you let me know and give proper credit because hell, I worked hard for each icon[!]. Kyah~ 
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Let me just post a very short entry(although a bit late... ^^;) : ZOMG! ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION performed the new BLEACH opening! And the sequence totally ROCKS!

*Orihime is STILL annoying as ever..

Okay. So I finally caved in and got a free account on sendspace... SS hates me damnit! and I hope signing up helps me with downloads... GAh. I mean... I already have a mediafire folder! *whines* oh, well. I am posting because I need to PIMP! this to get "points". Sendspace and I will be getting to know one another a bit more in the near future. *snickers* bwahahaha... Click. Or. Die.

Ignore me. I am emo. (^.^)

I just cried wthout knowing the reason so, I'm releasing to avoid insanity. 

It's one of those days.

And... this is why I call myself a drama queen.

Utterly pointless. And it seems psycho-analysing myself doesn't work. So...

**********

This crushing pain. This irrepressible darkness. Makes me want to cry. Desperately. I clutch my chest. Close my eyes. And tried to withstand. This unthinkable need. This unknown desire. To be elsewhere. A place that is not here. I cannot. My tears won't come out. My sobs, dry. Futile in expressing. My desperation. Do I truly want this? Disappearance? Then, why can I not cry? I am cynical in my pain. I believe but I do not. How can I? When the one thing that I truly want. What I had truly desired... No power can ever grant. So, what is there left to dream of? What goal is worth pursuing? What end is worth desiring for? So, then I remain stagnant in my... What do I call this feeling? To what word shall I name it to? Sorrow? Fear? Want? Science dictates that the world cannot stop on its axis. Cannot divert from its rotation. Because, then it will be a terrible, unbearable. Unknown. So, people are content to accept that the earth is in fact forever in motion. And by logical association, the "world" is, too. As life in constant movement is continuing towards a definite destination. I am stuck in an inertia of indecision. How could I move? When the force I needed is apparently, as I have concluded... nonexistent. Shall I be forever in constant stillness? Without the comfort of hope? Without even. 
The privilege of waiting?

**********

Okay. 

As I said... pointless. And  confusing.

Once again. Ignore me.

I just realized:

+MoriEiji a.k.a. sexy-boi *snickers* looks a lot like a young Jet Li. (uhm... *dodges thrown things*)

+Tuti is getting cuter.

+Tuti in civ is HAWT! \~.~/

+Kime and MoriEiji in this pic look like a couple. *meep*

+Tuti has some of the most disturbingly adorable pictures in his blog entries. ^3^
http://ameblo.jp/pnish-tuti/entry-10046706784.html
http://ameblo.jp/pnish-tuti/page-1.html

+Devil May Cry's Dante is a  TOTALLY  droolworthy eyecandy.

ch_ar_me

 I totally ♥♥♥ it!

*off to review again*

I am so sad right now...inconsolable... and I can't really help but cry my heart out.
We have been together for almost four (4) years... We've been through so much! From my thesis drafts to it's final copy... From various ebooks (either fiction for pleasure or non-fiction for educational puposes) to certain AMV's and PV's... From my massive fanfiction collection to all the quotes I've compiled ever since internet became an obssession. And just recently... an almost insane raiding of FF.net and adding to my favorites like mad. But now... *whimper* T____T *cries*
Goodbye my beloved IPAQ!!! *sniffs* *sobs* You have been so dear to me... a near constant companion through Wi-Fi hotspots and various other places. You shall be fondly remembered. I will reminisce times when I have giggled over Orange Range MVs with you... the times when I secretly read fanfiction from your 512KB memory card just because I was bored in class... all those times when I wasn't in the mood for reading and you entertained me Jawbreaker(TM) and Sudoku(TM). Alas! It is over for you and no matter how hard I try, you can never be revived again...with the money I have right now, Rest assured my much adored Pocket PC(TM)... you will never be far from my mind... though, you may be replaced, the treasured memories of the time we had together will constantly resurface and will always bring a smile to my face.
Adios!さよなら!Paalam!Auf Wiedersehen!Arrivederci!Au Revoir!Bai Bai! 
my HP IPAQ h6300 series! You will forever be sorely missed...

Gah-huh! *dies*
When I read reviews of Ookiku, I was definitely expecting "fangirl-giggling"-inducing subtext. 
What I got was outright FLIRTATION! Gah. asdjkl;asdgkjf---

I am up to episode 7 and I'm giggling madly--- enough to scare my dog. [I was like : "Hara! Noooo..... come back! I won't scar you with my shotacon [and yes, since these KIDS! are barely out of middleschool] fantasies!!!! ---uh... much."] 

I mean. Episode 5 was enough to get my head up on the clouds for a week! with its "Abe x Mihashi" context. [Abe was determined to get Mihashi to choose him over Mihoshi *kyaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!* [gets an Abe plushie and cuddles]] 

And now... the possessive-quality of 'Abe-kun's' dialogue is killing me. POT's Golden Pair was canon and fanservice.... This? This is waaay beyond canon and fanservice. This is.... ugh! [hanyaaaa~~~~~] 

SPOILERS ALERT!

ON! episode 7 [which, if I had not stressed it enough, is slowly killing! me with its sweetness and subtext.] :

Mihashi [thinking] : i-it's Abe-kun. I... have to... a- apologize properly. My strength... I can't raise my head.

[Mihashi's eyes widens.]

Abe : I' m sorry. I rushed an out because of my greed. The triple... and the home run... are both my responsibility. You're pitching really well. Raise your head.

Mihashi raises his head and looks up at Abe. [I can NOT believe I am narrating an episode excerpt!]

Mihashi : W- Why did... you... apologize?

[Abe looks away.]

Abe : When I say "greed," I was aiming for no hits or runs.

Mihashi : Why... is that?

Abe [shouts] : You! It's because you kept looking at Mihoshi regretfully! I wanted to set a clear difference in the score and win!



Mihashi : U- U- Um....



Abe stares intently at Mihashi... before he was *ahem* interrupted and called away, leaving Mihashi startled and confused.

Mihashi [thinking] : I... towards Mihoshi?



See!!!! See!!!! Ever since episode 5, Abe was soooo jealous! ^^; poor naive *cough*uke*cough* Mihashi. *snickers*

And then, it gets even better. ^^

@the end of the game [latter part of episode 7] :
 
Mihashi!

Mihashi jumps, surprised.... and runs away. Abe [of course!] catches him and drags him to face his former team [with Mihashi struggling all the way (oooh...kinky! ah.. *ahem*).

Abe [thinking] : We won! It's all right. No matter what they say, this guy won't return to Mihoshi!

Fastforward!
And then when they asked Mihashi to come back....

Abe [still thinking towards Mihashi] : Tell them clearly that you won't return! .... Please say it, Mihashi!




Teeheeee.... *giggles* 
BONUS! @ the end of episode :

Domestic Bliss :




Caught in the act?! : [yes... Abe is... flustered.]


  


*What the catcher devotes to the pitcher, the pitcher returns with trust. It's good to be trusted, right?

Abe [towards Mihashi] : I will... devote myself to you for three years.



Abe : I will definitely make you feel that... [don't you just love Abe's determined expression and single-mindedness? *snickers*] you were glad you picked Nishiura!



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okay... I am definitely spamming your FList. I am sorry... I just can't help it! I HAD to do it!  You understand me.... right? ^^; ehehehehe.... Definitely have a lot to look forward to in this series. ^^
Off to see Heat Guy J...

You're Muse!


What's Your Goddess Identity?

Brought to you by Tickle 

Known for your creative powers, you Muses are the poets and musicians of life, the patrons of the fine arts. It's funny, though — even with your inspirational prowess, you're probably not the type to boast about your guitar-strumming skills, or your latest published book of verse.

While it's great when people flock to you for ideas, there probably is a part of you that prefers to blend in sometimes — whether dressing in muted shades or staking out a one-on-one conversation at parties and social events. But try as you might not to hog the spotlight, others can't help but notice you. Must be hard to be such a goddess!

Despite any lingering modesty, you might be surprised at how much your mere presence can help improve the lives of those around you by infusing them with ideas and good thoughts. With that kind of healing energy, your inspirational ways have the potential to change the world, Muse. Whether you're scribbling sonnets, boogying with your friends, or drawing your own constellations — you're tapped in. So keep your eyes wide open to the possibilities and let that inspiration flow!

In life you can make your own decisions or let other people make those decisions for you. Being Above The Influence is about staying true to yourself, and not letting people pressure you into being less than you. So be yourself. Or be something less. It's your call.

"There was a man, a very untidy man,
whose fingers could nowhere
be found to put in his tomb.
He had rolled his head far
underneath the bed :
He had left his legs and arms
lying all over the room."

=Three Young Rats and Other Rhymes=
[the museum of modern art]



The above is from the manga K no Souretsu or "A Funeral Procession of K"
By Maki Kusumoto. This is a scanlation project done by Storm in Heaven.
Actually, I saw this manga waaay back but this is the only time I had the "courage" to read it. *sweatdrop* Because really... the erm...rhyme... is a bit... creepy. Interesting, though. ^__^ Plus the fact that I had this feeling that this manga is going to make my head ache with all its psychological drama. Gah. 

The chapter "teaser" already made me go : "gu-huh?ha?!". I am still mustering up the "will power" to go through with the whole two volumes... oh, well. ^__^;
The art is, to say the least, remarkable. If you like the style of the graphic novel Sin City, well... you would LOVE K no Souretsu. There is this perfect blend of black, white and red. Although, I am not recommending this for the faint hearted. simply because this manga creates a darker atmosphere than, in my opinion, Sin City. 

Baka-Updates categorizes the manga in the Fantasy, Mystery genre. The summary given was this :

The funeral bells are ringing the day that Mikaya moves into his new apartment. However, once he arrives, he learns a startling fact: the room he's moving into belonged to the dead man, K. Strangely enough, no one ever found K's body. Where is the body, and which of his eccentric neighbors was the one who killed K...? 

It may not be high on the horror scale but, K no Souretsu is sure to creep you out. ^__^ If only for its twists and dark metaphors. 

*gah. my head aches...

ok I will NOT spoil! I will NOT spoil! But... let me just rant, pls?
gah.

I haven't even read through the first chapter, when the first death happens. What is up?! I understand that there is a war going on people but... I felt that JK Rowling was a little bit trigger happy and went on a random killing spree.
+and the last battle[showdown of the main characters] was a little bit anti-climactic+
-some of the characters that were my favorite came out a  bit bland and disappointing in the end.

I just have to get this out of my system :